I have lost the feeling of crying, laughing.
just like i am numb to all these feelings.
I no longer know what's the feeling of crying and laughing wholeheartedly.
I just feel that i am living in my own world.
I could not hear all the voices around me.
It's just feel i am not being me anymore. a completely different feeling.
Just like my heart, soul and mind are not in contact and have been seperated.
Maybe i need a little time to find back myself and be ME again.
So that i could be a freely me, and a happy ME.

RESULTS!!!!

Results were out yesterday at 2pm. i was really scared, i was not being able to do well, since i did not put alot of effort for my o's. I was so scared for the whole morning because of my result and was not at my best mood when i went back to robinsons. When i reach school, we started queueing and went into the hall, Mr Keh started off with a prayer and they announced the results. We did a huge improvement than last years. and there 93.3% pass for our maths. Soon he announced all of it and we were supposed to collect our results. I was the fourth and when i gotten my results and i was so afraid to open it.


But the paper fly and i saw my results, i was so happy that i passed my english as i always get F9 during my whole secondary 4 year. I did not expect to get 15 points for my o'level. I was overwhelmed. i did not make my parents disappointed. Choosen the course i want and bro ask me to submit it as asap.


Now, mum owed me 100 dollars and bro owe me 50 dollars. Sis owe me a meal. I must remind them.

3 weeks past so fast

i have finally finish my job at robinsons already. three weeks pass my fast for me. i still remember on the first day when i just came for work, i only know valarie. but after that we mix with lots of new people and have new friends. met with new people like jess, shiyu and farah. they are all awesome people. and we help with each other along the way. we soon become friends. Because working at the lasies shoes sections, i have met with great supervisor ,senior staff, promoters and they are very helpful and friendly too. Makes me soon be in their big family. Although we make mistakes at the till or the floor, they will always teach us the dos and don'ts. We soon know about it and will always try not to make the same mistakes ever again.

I always remember the first day i start work, i was doing sales. It's my first time doing and i do not know how to approach customers and where the storerooms for different shoes were. I always have to ask the staff where is it. Even most funny is i do not know how to pack the shoes in the correct way. But as days goes by, i become more experienced with it and could find the boxes faster.

Doing sales and dooing cashier is a complete different feeling, doing cashier we must be really careful of the money and i make a lot of mistakes because of it. I was super scared of doing cashier at that time since it was the sales period and many people came to do their christmas shopping so there were many people. i was frightened to my wits end. I was scolded by customer too for being too slow and accused of keying two times. Lucky the manager was there and explained to her. It was not my fault. But i was scared to do cashier from then on and move on to do sales.

Sales was much better when there were many people to keep you busy. but it can be hectic too.doing sales time there were so much people till you can forget which size is which and end up getting the different sizes. but when there were no customers, time pass slow. but with friends around you, time will eventually pass by quickly. when doing sales, met with different group of people like hanisah, novia, and the "guntu" guy, and other promoters. they are all nice people. Along the way, made friends with a promoter from GUESS. We started smiling at each other first and started talking when she came to the cashier to bring the bag to the customers.

I really love my this job and would not forget all the people who helped me before. LOVE

timepass very fast this year, in a blink of an eye, 2010 is coming to an end.
today is christmas eve. gonna celebrate it with my family tonight.
but cant really celebrate christmas this year, because of my 'wonderful' work schedule.
was happy intially as i am gonna have off today and get to rest at home.
but there's a saying, all good things will come with bad things.
and i received a message saying i have to be standby and work till 11pm. mygosh.
i was expecting to go home early.

it's only been one week of work and i am dead beat without sufficent rest.
working at sales floor is tiring but enjoyable. as i don't like to do cashier because it is super stress and you will easily make mistake when you get nervous. that's why i ratehr do at sales floor.
but when at sales floor, can say when theres no customer it's really boring, but once customer start coming in, it's neverending work. the record i have was to carry 4 boxes of shoes at once. and have many boxes stacking below the shoes tables. but time passes very fast when you are busy.

work become enjoying when you have caring friends and even supervisors around you to help you. met with new friends and we helped each other along the way. sometimes we even get to go lunch/dinner together and even joke with each other. so work can be tiring yet fun. but i left another 16 more days till my contract ends. and melissa is leaving on the 27th. she been a great help when we are working. :(

but with work, i miss going out with my girlfriends. i miss going out with them. it's been awhile since we actually go out from day to night. cause when they asked me out, is either i am working or i wanna rest. sorry about that girls. but there will be a time when we will all go out together. i miss joking with them, and doing all the nonsense things. its funn and it makes my day bright.

2010 is coming to an end. gonna write a whole list of things happening during these years. so wait up for my last post of 2010 bah. teehee.><

i have not touched this blog for ages alrd.
suddenly have the urge to blog.
been going out this holidays. and i am broke to th max.
chalet was fun. especially on the second night. hahaha
anyway, went on training for monday and tuesday.
it was okay for monday since it was some kind of lecture.
met a girl called valarie. started chatting.
it was hilarious during the training when it comes to group discussions.
plus there's many guides to follow when in the store or at the cashier there.
hope i will be able to absorb.
finished at 5pm and dad send me home.

tuesday, headed down to changi for the trainign again.
we learnt how to do cashier. it was okay bah.
learnt how to float in/float out and change money etc.
had an individual test. and i stumble a lot.
continue to train somemore.
it was boring waiting for everyone to finish.
train and play at the same time.
i made life difficult for a guy called daniel?
he sure does have good memory even i forgot what i say.
training finish at 1pm.
train to tenah merah with valarie and daniel.
then trained to lot one to meet jinglin, then train to city hall.
then went to find hy. went for lunch and slack while waiting for wy.
all i can say, suntec was huge. me and jl were lost several times to find the exit.
met wy, ate dinner and walk around. waiting for hy to finish work.
well, we were like disturbing hy and her bf. and we were so noisy.
had fun yesterday.
gonna start work tomorrow. pray hard.

Ps. Sherlyn, i promise we will go watch movie. but is when we both are free on the same day. haha. and i want my buffet too.
Pss. we were on the same topic for days already. cause you reply my text super slow.

no one will understand me. :(

O'levels has finished!
YAYYYYY!!!

I can party all I want le.
No need to study anymore.